However when I started as a brand new nurse I felt the same way-like I might accidentally kill somebody or mess up a medication or both.
I actually had a dream that I had a patient, pregnant with triplets, who died after seeing me in clinic. Talk about
Since starting my job at a cancer clinic in November, I'm learning TONS and getting better everyday. But there are some things that I just can't wait to go away.
- Whenever my manager calls me and I think I did something wrong.
- Whenever another provider calls me and I think I did something wrong.
- Whenever I see a patient and I ask questions from a physician because I'm afraid of doing something wrong.
- Being afraid to ask questions because I don't want people to think I'm stupid.
- Second guessing the majority of my decisions.
- Staring at the screen for several minutes before signing any prescription.
- Having a patient at the end of the visit say, "Do I get to see the doctor now?" (umm..YOU JUST DID).
Everyone there is so nice and welcoming and they genuinely seem happy to have me there. And I'm starting this Survivorship program-to outline long term follow up care for our cancer survivors. I actually had to start digging up old notes from grad school to help outline my implementation and research for this program-knowing that something from grad school (my seminar courses & DNP project stuff) is actually something I'm using now makes me want to die! But it's nice to have a project where I can sort of prove myself and build in my own special role in the clinic at the same time.
Mainly it's hard to believe I've woken up at 5:30 in the morning 5 days a week for the past 2 months.
a major milestone will be having enough PTO to go on vacation. To get paid while on vacay!